Heavy Laden....

"Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2

It seems like this week, although I've put on a smile for those who might be watching, I've actually felt the opposite. I've felt sad....heavy....clouded. That's an unusual emotion for me because I think that I was born with a natural tendency to be happy.....a good thing most of the time. But there are times when, like this week, the scripture above makes me wonder....

Am I doing enough to bear others' burdens? Other than thinking and praying about them? That doesn't seem like enough. Maybe I don't have enough faith in prayer....but it just doesn't feel like I'm doing enough to bear others' burdens.

I continue to live in my quaint home, eat my dinner with a meat, two veggie sides, bread and a drink.....the safety of my city's protection.....the light of electricity that I pay for with money that, although is hard earned and often complained about (teacher pay!), is still more money that most of the world ever sees.....yet, there are over 100,000 dead, dying, starving in Myanmar. Are my prayers enough?

I've now spoken to three different people this week that are struggling financially....good people trying to make ends meet....feeling like Job because the hits keep on coming. I would love to be able to donate my own car and say, "here use this...." but....I don't have the luxury. Are my prayers enough? Am I really bearing someone's burdens?

I feel a need to help. I want to walk in to these people's lives and pour out more blessings than they could ever imagine. Do. Go. Do. Go. Do something......As soon as those words are uttered in my head though, Mr. Reality Check rears his ugly head. Actually, he has a last name - Mr. Reality Check Doubt. "What could I do?....I can't do that."

Not a really happy go-lucky post, but it is on my mind. And since blogging is my therapy, there you have it. At least you all don't charge a hefty fee. I'm now going to go watch Top Chef....in my warm bed, next to my healthy husband and healthy daughter....so thankful for my own blessings.....but still so burdened for others.