She did a little runnin'
They treated Mother Nature to a Clean Up....
...but since my father-in-law doesn't have a blog to share it, I'm certain he won't mind me hijacking his story. It paints a perfect picture of how God IS into the small things. We often....okay, I often....cast Him aside until I "really" need Him. Something is wrong. Someone's sick. I need direction, and so on.
There's no denying that I'm a little envious. This lady can not only cook, she has her own cooking show where she travels the world, and she's perfectly beautiful. Well, I might not can travel the world for a living.....I might not be drop dead gorgeous....but I can try to cook like Giada.
Many of my friends know that I have been plagued with mouth ulcers for more than a year now. I've tried everything. Salt water, lysine (worked for a bit, but didn't last), prescription mouth washes, zinc, Vitamin C, you name it. My doctor, and everyone else, blame them all on stress. I have to believe that, yes, stress is a big factor. But that just couldn't be it....I'm really not stressed out! I don't walk around frazzled.....
Honk if you've been here. My job stinks right now...kiddos are not behaving according to my standards (will they ever??). My hubs and I are in the "wearen'tquiteconnecting" phase (tell me I'm not the only one who's ever there). I haven't worked out in days - strike that...weeks. Strike that...months. I just got my new Athleta catalogue and boy did that make me feel good! And.....I'm just going to say it. I've been avoiding God like the plague. Ironic. He sends plagues...I'm treating Him like one.
It's a nasty place to be. That bottomless pit that you let yourself sink into.
I know I serve a God who can look past my mess and say, "Flo....get your booty back in tune with Me" and somehow make me see Him - and look past ME.
I know I have a wonderful husband, who even when we aren't 'connected', happen to be 1,000% devoted to each other and our marriage/kids.
I know this year of teaching will end. (And I know prayerfully working on my own patience will help my class 1,000%.)
I know all these things. Yet, I've been a Debbie Downer. My friend, Jenna blogged about starting her "Gratitude Journal" with a goal of 1,000+ gratitudes. I have a journal she sweetly gave me....now I just need to gain the attitude of gratitude!
So I'm apologizing via blog. Yes, via blog. I'm letting myself off the hook. Lovin' the lyrics from old school Nichole Nordeman's Mercies New. Sounds like me right now....
Is it fair to say, I was lured away?
By endless distractions and lovelier attractions then
Or fairer still, my own free will
Is the better one to blame
For the familiar mess I've made again
So I would understand, if You were out of patience
And I would understand, if I was out of chances
But Your mercies are new every morning
So let me wake with the dawn!