Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Heavy Laden....

"Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2

It seems like this week, although I've put on a smile for those who might be watching, I've actually felt the opposite. I've felt sad....heavy....clouded. That's an unusual emotion for me because I think that I was born with a natural tendency to be happy.....a good thing most of the time. But there are times when, like this week, the scripture above makes me wonder....

Am I doing enough to bear others' burdens? Other than thinking and praying about them? That doesn't seem like enough. Maybe I don't have enough faith in prayer....but it just doesn't feel like I'm doing enough to bear others' burdens.

I continue to live in my quaint home, eat my dinner with a meat, two veggie sides, bread and a drink.....the safety of my city's protection.....the light of electricity that I pay for with money that, although is hard earned and often complained about (teacher pay!), is still more money that most of the world ever sees.....yet, there are over 100,000 dead, dying, starving in Myanmar. Are my prayers enough?

I've now spoken to three different people this week that are struggling financially....good people trying to make ends meet....feeling like Job because the hits keep on coming. I would love to be able to donate my own car and say, "here use this...." but....I don't have the luxury. Are my prayers enough? Am I really bearing someone's burdens?

I feel a need to help. I want to walk in to these people's lives and pour out more blessings than they could ever imagine. Do. Go. Do. Go. Do something......As soon as those words are uttered in my head though, Mr. Reality Check rears his ugly head. Actually, he has a last name - Mr. Reality Check Doubt. "What could I do?....I can't do that."

Not a really happy go-lucky post, but it is on my mind. And since blogging is my therapy, there you have it. At least you all don't charge a hefty fee. I'm now going to go watch Top my warm bed, next to my healthy husband and healthy thankful for my own blessings.....but still so burdened for others.


BrotherBoog said...

Flo - I love you...thanks for being the one that's articulate.

Andi said...

I am sure that weighs heavy on many hearts. I would love to do so much more that I do, but there's always that little voice in the back of my head saying, Wait! You can't do that you have this and this and this to do, and that and that and that to pay for. How do you triumph over that little voice? The never ending question.

But Flo, I see you as that person that would do anything for anyone. You came to my house one night because I was ill and brought me medicine. To you that might seem small but to me larger than life!
Thanks for everything you have done!

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